Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

DLS,

I use to want my M more than anything, but somewhere along the way I lost that feeling. I just don't want the M anymore. I still do not want D either, but I do know that I want live a better life than the one I have now. I want my kids with me, and I will continue with a D because I do not have trust for my W. I know now is the time to just do it because I will not allow her to put me in this position someday in the future if she changes her mind. Maybe i am insecure, maybe I am realistic. I don't know. Just is what it is.

I would not want to be sexually involved with my W unless there is love too. I just don't have love for her. Sex without love is just sex, and it is hollow in the end and does not last.

I just could not touch her after she gave her love and self to another man.

I am making myself a better person, and I have to do that every moment of everyday. It is hard, but I will be happy someday soon I believe and feel really good about myself always.

I understand what you are saying, but I have to not give into temptation.

It is not the end of the story, but the beginning of a new one for me. I will stay on this forum because I still have long ways to go with making a better me.