Point taken. His last MLC 8 years ago at age 41, he never really 'left'. He came and went and came and went, and when he was home he was drinking and being ugly to me. This went on for most of a year and then he just snapped out of it, but I don't think he ever really got over it. I have a friend who suggested that all the emotions that I had clamped down on came boiling up when we talked on Friday, and that is why I was a wreck for 3 straight days.
I want to stand for this marriage. I do not want a divorce. No matter what EVERYONE ELSE says.
Do I deserve better? Hell yes, but he is capable of BEING BETTER. Regardless of how he is acting now, I know inside he is a decent, loving individual - with a trainload of baggage. For the moment, this is the best I can do, and I'll give it my all.
