I feel like i need to contact WAW

[knightinneed]

Knight, the thing with detachment is that if you were truly detached, you would not be concerned with anything your WAW was doing that did not involve your DD1.

I know your right. I have really been getting into prayer quite a bit to help cope with all of this. I know my wife is immature perhaps a narcissist as well as she has many of the symptoms.

The prayer and religion part have me divided on if this M should even be thought about to be saved? I mean if I really wanted to I could go FILE right now ask for full and speed it along as I know she has no money for that.

I havent prayed for her so much as myself and DD1. Prayed for clarity, guidance, for someone to come along my path to help me and for the lord to take my pain away.

I am just wondering if WAW fog is real and well regardless of how evil she seems and has a vendetta for me is it Gods plan for me to move on now or perhaps wait her out?

I really would like for her to file D since it will save me $ and she is the one that wants it. My money can be used for a custody case moving forward or new stuff for DD1.

Part of me thinks that when the smoke has cleared she has hit rock bottom has no money and no one to help, that the call of god may come into her life again, and well what if she is on my doorstep.

I hate to keep harping, but after reading prayer circle and also doing some of my own praying these thoughts enter my mind and well, I just wonder if one day we can be civil enough to not hate but respect one another again.

It could be 18 yrs of hell if it continues on this path and I would prefer DD1 to be in her life if she is showing stabilty.

I guess I do still love her, but am detached and moving on. I made a promise to not look at her facebook ever again and if OM shows up at court, I plan on just not looking that way.

Please pray for me guys, I need it.