I know my H still lives with me but the past week and the weekend has been awful. He seemed agitated and irritable and just back to his old cheating self. A little detached. I dont know why. I could be overanalyzing but at this point I cannot fathom him leaving our family for her and her kids. Why would someone want to leave one family for another. It seems SO out of character for him. I am not saying he is leaving, but if I catch him again which because I did not kick him out the other 3 times it seems likely because he does not take me serious even though I am very serious this time...I dont know..We just had SOOO much in common..still do. Not sure how someone could change that SO much. I saw glimpses of the old him until I caught him again. Now I just feel like it is back to square one. What do I do? I just feel like giving up. I want us to be a family but it is getting to be too overwhelming...Will this affair EVER end! My self esteem is shot to hell!

Last edited by swimmingupstream; 06/21/10 05:37 PM.