Thank you Cat04. It's noon time here and I had to come home in order to take a Xanax. My nerves are worse than I ever remember them being.
Conclusion: My husband is going to do this every 8-10 years, and I don't want to be doing this at 61 years of age.
Conclusion: He is never going to accept that he is alcoholic and has PTSD, for which he needs therapy. The doctor that called on Friday said she wanted him for 'intensive evaluation' and he could expect to be there x 3 days. No one can make him go.
Conclusion: This part of my life is truly over, and I have to learn to accept it and move on. There will be life after marriage. I just can't get my head to tell my heart.
