I started to say that I wasn't interested in the large group of people (men) who just want to be married with kids. (We're talking suburbs, mowing the lawn, that sort of thing that is not bad but is just not us.) I said I wanted someone different.
He got up from the table and changed the subject. So I have no idea what that means. Did he not want to hear about the kind of man I want? Does he want to believe so bad that I left him that he doesn't want to hear otherwise?
I don't know.
So I went on a walk after our talk. He seemed happy to get stuff off his chest. I cried, mostly about the Ethiopia thing. I knew it could happen, but it frustrates me. I want to travel abroad and live abroad as a family. He wants to be a singleton. So it's frustrating.
What also bothered me is that he is totally H. So totally completely H right now. Not WH. He's showing up on time, communicating, trying to help me out (ahem, get me WATER), being apologetic. So it's hard to see that he's his regular self and he's still saying the same thing. He wants to be single.
I do still think there's hope for him to change his mind.
There's a guy on facebook who lives overseas and makes a sh!t-ton of money who is a year older than me. He has posted a bunch on my page lately, congratulations on the birth, happy birthday, liking my photographs. I think I'm going to write him. He's actually a childhood aquaintance that WH knows. So I think I'm going to drop hints to WH that I'm striking up a convo with this guy. I think that will get WH moving more quickly. Because I really won't wait around.
Posting again and then getting to the friend thing.
