I gave up...filed for D

[soleil]

Hey Luv. I am glad to see you are not stuck in limbo anymore. You sound much better. Hugs!!!!!!!

[luvless]

Yeah I'm glad not to be stuck anymore. It was awful feeling trapped. At least I don't have to worry about him not coming home or who he is with. It's not my concern anymore. He can stress someone else out.

I am feeling a little relieved. I know the rollercoaster is not done taking me for a dive but at least the good days are worth the bad ones.

[luvless]

Happy Fathers Day to all of you LBS both men and women. Your kids are thankful for you. Bless your families.

I have some serious emotional stress coming my way this week. Please keep me in your prayers guys.

I've enjoyed the rollercoaster climbing for a while now but I'm scared because the dips are coming.

Luv

[Gardener]

luv,
You'll have my prayers.
You've been through the dips. Hang on. They won't last. Hang on. You're a veteran!

[LSG]

luv,

Thanks luv the for the Happy Father's Day wishes to all the LBS. That was very nice of you.

Remember to keep that rollercoaster going up. Just think how much fun it will be when it goes up again and stays there.

You and your kids are in my prayers always.

[luvless]

Thank you Gardener and LSG

LSG - I look at your signature and see you are in a much better place - acceptance.
It's gonna be ok huh? yeah...hurts like hell but when you come out the other side you'll be all right!

Gardener - true support! I love it....

Hugs!

[CityGirl]

Luv, where are you?! Check your cell phone!

[luvless]

Hi guys,

I've been around doing paperwork. I am trying to stuff my 19 year marriage in a file and it doesn't fit!

I am still having good days and very sad/bad moments but I am dealing. I'm at a stage where I don't know what to think anymore...was my marriage real? do I even get sad over it? is he the guy that I thought loved me very much? I feel like not feeling anything over someone who didn't exist - it's weird. I don't even know if I'm making any sense.

The next phase of arguing is right around the corner. It's gonna get ugly I'm sure knowing my X. He has abandoned us all emotionally and physically and now he'll do it financially.

Keep praying for me. I'm not done yet.

Luv

[Fergie]

{{{Luvless}}}

Strangely enough, you make perfect sense.

Keep your chin up. I'm thinking about you.

--Fergie

[luvless]

Fergie - thank you for that.

Last night was the first night my kids went to spend time in the enemy's camp. I was glad that Mr. Luv actually wanted to see them. My initial thoughts were - he must be bored or no women were available friday night. He never calls...only texts them and I hate that. The kids do too but they don't voice it to him...just to me. I get it all...the emotional burden lies upon me..it's always been that way.

I feel so damn sad for the kids and how our family is cut in half. One parent on one side and one on the other - just like their friends - now they are just another statistic. I am rambling sorry.

I finally finished all my paperwork and we are ready to go to battle. My stbxH is so petty it's embarrassing. I am struggling with who he is - I do not know him anymore. I look at pictures and wonder where Mr. Luv went. It makes me very sad then very mad. I can't wait for the day to feel blank.

Luv