Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

Hey DLS,

I am doing really good. I was P!ssed last night, but today I am amused.

Father's Day started good. I woke up early and the kids had two cakes they decorated for me, and a nice gift from D. It was great.

In the afternoon after playing with the kids and W actually participating, I had fun. W then says, "The kids and I would like to take you to lunch. She said I can just give you the money, and you can take the kids by yourself." I said it is okay if you go with not much enthusiasm. The kids wanted to go to the beach too. I said okay.

I knew that STBXW had been texting the OM, so I do not look at it as any great thing. I paid for the kids to take her out on Mother's Day just the three of them. I know it was not from the goodness of her heart. The MIL talked to her the night before, so she is just playing her hand a little too hard. I also noticed her going to the bathroom and had her cell phone in her pocket at the beach, so she is just trying to play sweet to me because the Order to Show Cause filed with the court. She will do these games until the hearing I am sure. I do not see any changes.

We did not talk much at lunch, and she was polite to offer me a towel and polite the whole day actually. It was the nicest she has been in awhile and the most we have talked in awhile. I do not want her back, so it does not matter, and the OM is still in the picture, so I believe nothing she says and does. I did not have any high hopes. I saw the phone in her pocket, and I just did not care.

Tomorrow will be a new day. Back to my fight for the kids and against her and the OM. I do not intend to take false gestures from her to mean anything. I am done with her and my M. I am about the kids and winning my D.

I have been disrespected for too long to care about her anymore. She just looks rediculous all the cute crap she pulls.

Today was nice for the kids, so I was happy they had a good day as a family.

D does get mad at W and defends me alot these days. My S worries about a girl cheating on him someday because I was stupid and said something about that when it all began and he heard. He also said, "he does not want a woman to treat him badly. W was shocked and looked a little embarrassed. We do not talk about this at all with or in front of the kids since then. It was a mistake, and it has not been repeated.

W also said to the kids that they have a great father, and he takes very good care of you.

She is now on the phone with her parents, so I wonder what she is up too. I have to be very cautious because she is just being smarter, or she thinks she is. I will not fall for the BS from her now or in the future.