BD- Yeah. I am wrestling with the fact that he admitted his uncertainty but thinks this is the right thing to do. Still, he is doing it. So I must force myself to accept it and proceed accordingly. Again, it is selfish of him to tell me that. He must have said it about 3 times on Friday night. Holy crap- I married a "fixer upper"- a "project!" I had no idea! He is just taking that leap of faith and sabotaging his life.
"listen all y'all this is SABOTAGE!"
gabbysmom, sorry to hear you are still struggling! But you do sound less "foggy" than I am right now so I see that as progress, don't you? So yes, my goal is to focus on my son and me and not stbxh. I hope the evidence will be posted here in the thread-if I don't let myself write about him then I won't be thinking about him, right?
The only problem is that when I have to do things that relate to divorce, it does make me think of him so I will have to think of him sometimes.
But...today I focused on ideas for setting up my classroom in the fall and ordered some things. (One is a set of "fortune tellers" with questions that the kids can use to "get to know each other!" they will love them and I bet during Fun Friday they will be making them.)
S and I played catch- he can throw a ball now! He also loves to attack pillows and me, when I am lying on the floor!
Tonight I will be watching some shows I recorded, like "Leverage" and "Top Chef!"
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004
