very emotional... getting really tired and anxious... and really over my own sitch!
I think my H is using me... afraid he is just being nice entirely to get close to the baby and nothing to do with us. I need to accept it. I need to convince myself that I am never going to be together with him. Not now, not ever.
My only focus should be the baby and only the baby.
i wish I could program my brain to think of BABY only!!!
Would help if he didnt text or call or come around! Or be nice!!! I dont have to initiate anything anymore b/c he does... but realizing he is only doing this for his own selfish needs... obviously he like having me in his life as his friend... but not good enough to want to work things out as his W.
Makes me so angry. I was doing good. I have a few good days... i feel invincable... i feel confident and happy and capable of being single and doing this on my own... and then he sucks me in! I realize I am the one to blame! This has been a cycle for the past 2 months... and I am getting off his rollercoaster!
