My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

you're right, of course. the thing is, I don't even realize I'm pursuing until I look back and see the trail of emails I've left...without thinking.

do I want us to be a thing? yes. I do. I'm ready. I've known him for a long time--with a large gap there in the middle, but I know who he is. he's a good man, there's a lot of synchronicity. I don't have to know where it's going, I don't have to know THIS IS IT. I just want some possibility. it was there in the beginning, and I liked it, and then life happened and...it went into hiding. so. there it is.

I was never any good at db'ing...ask any of the old timers. xH left and never looked back, never waffled, never left the door open even a crack, so nothing I did in those early days had any effect at all. and after 7-8 months, I let go because it clearly wasn't moving. it wasn't MLC after all, it was an exit affair, he wanted out and wanted to be able to lay the blame on me. so...no db'ing had any effect at all. I'm as new to it as anyone else, really.