- Complete paeds subspeciality year successfully (well on track) - Get randomised controlled trial in progress (not so well on track) - Start new job well without killing OW or losing my own dignity - Get more kitesurfing and walking done - Continue to lose weight - Get copy of CP Cert for impending legal separation/dissolution proceedings - Enjoy Glastonbury even though going alone - Do more pub quizzes
Mid term goals:
- Pass exit exams in Sept 2011 - Get part time consultant job - Get veggie garden going again - Complete legal proceedings with honour and pride intact - Get some nice cube solid oak bookshelves and get office sorted
Long term goals:
- Move back to Scotland - Find a lovely lady to settle down and have a family with - Cycle round the south of France on a tandem with above - Keep large veggie patch, and spend summers chasing my large dogs and kids on beach
Goals achieved:
- Find and equip new abode, new car and all moneys repaid to me - Instructor status for APLS and CPRR - Make new friends - Enjoy dating again (sometimes at least) - Visit Scotland more often - Start running and hiking again - Get kitesurfing again - Appear happy and content to the outside world at least - Go to the theatre more often - Cook proper meals, even though it's just for one
Well it's out here now. Wonder if I'll look back in a few years and see how many I've ticked off.
I just need to figure out how to let go of the bitterness and hate that is repeatedly dredged up every time I see the smug OW.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Sorry to be just catching up. I see your ups and downs. Normal. Crappy, but normal.
Your goals are fantastic. I still don't have any. I guess I am past "just survive" but haven't made any other real goals.
Scotland, lovely lady, tandem bikes and dogs and babies all sound wonderful. And it CAN happen. My sis had her first kid at 42.
If there is one thing I have learned, it's that we DON'T know what's going to happen. Could be anything. Could be your partner of 22 years walking out on you. Could be bumping into a Scottish lassie...your eyes lock...she walks you out to her tandem bike...
Well another enjoyable date today. Lovely lady, ticked pretty much all my boxes except the all important "gives me butterflies and makes me shiver when she touches me" box. She seemed to be interested that way in me - lots of touching and smiling and linking arms from her. Ho hum. We will be friends likely, as she is relatively local and a fab woman.
I am slightly disappointed, but proud of myself that I am still a discerning enough woman to wait it out till the right one comes along.
So dates = 4. Friends = 3, stalker = 1.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Today a piece of genius song spoof occurred spontaneously during our jam session. We are thinking of doing some more and going public!
To be sung to KT Tunstall's Heal Over
It isn't very difficult to see why You are the way you are Doesn't take a genius to realise That sometimes life is hard It's gonna take time But you'll just have to wait You're gonna be fine But in the meantime
Come over here matey Let me pour your beers away Come a little nearer baby Coz you'll keel over Keel over Keel over to-day
And I wanna hear you tell yourself That these binges are in the past You know that you don’t need that last ‘top shelf’ ‘cause that head pain’s gonna last Everybody heaves alone But we can stagger side by side Even if you bail You know the landlord doesn’t mind Come over here matey.......
Don't hold on but don't let go I know it's so hard You've got to try to hit the pan I know it's so hard, so hard
Come over here matey Let me poor your beers away Come a little nearer baby Coz you'll keel over, keel over, keel over to-day
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Spent the morning sweating half my bodyweight out inside a bunny suit during a chem/bio/rad/nuc/exp exercise in the most glorious sunshine. We all had a lot of fun with the bouncy castle tents as well.
Then a very warm but pleasant afternoon with the sMIL and 2 of her daughters in their garden, sipping tea, muching on nice food and generally discussing life and the universe. Apparently the OW looked ridiculous in tiny hot pants when she visited with the STBXW, and the sMIL was secretly laughing to herself knowing full well that she was about to get nettled to death on the path over to the farm after leaving their house. That made me grin too. As did the sMIL reconfirming that the OW is in fact 32 and not the 42 she actually looks. All music to my ears. They told a lot of lies to the sMIL in that visit including about the timing of their relationship (sMIL has been party to pretty much all the evidence I gathered) but neither said a bad word about me apparently. sMIL is sure it will all fall apart soon as she sees them as very badly suited also. sMIL is adamant that the STBXW is obviously incapable of truly serious emotional involvement, despite talking the talk about it for those years she was with me.
And as a positive end to today I've just bought my own bodyweight in beer and snacks to take to the wonderful Glastonbury Festival, which I attend each year. Love it to bits, and looking forwards to catching up with the rest of the medical crew which after 12yrs of festivals together, are like family to me. And some fabulous live music of course!
Positive sunny thoughts to everyone.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Just (naughtily) checked in on the STBX email. She's just bought a £360 tiffany necklace. I'm assuming this is to avoid the awkward questions about having a ring before she is even legally separated from me.
I am pleased they are being so unbelievably stupid. If their timeline for the relationship is to be believed, they are engaged at just short of 4 months in. By my reckoning it is more like 8 months since they started their affair.
Glastonbury never fails to be fantastic, rain or shine. This year looks like more shine too! Going with a good group of mates from work this year as well. Can't wait - will be there working by this time tomorrow.
And to top it all off England has made it through hurrah! Well done to the USA too - see you in the last 16!
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Had an ace time at Glastonbury. Almost the perfect festival and can't wait for next year.
Developed a wholly ridiculous crush on one of my junior colleagues whilst there, but as she's st8 it will stay just as that. Fortunately she lives a couple of hundred miles away, so shouldn't be too much bother, so I'll just continue to enjoy the showering of txt from her. Also have a couple of other ladies that seem to be at least vaguely interested, so am continuing to window shop for the moment. I think I'm meeting at least one of them this weekend so we'll see what comes of that. I'm pleasantly surprised by the interest - never really done the dating thing with any gusto in the past, seemed to either just happen on the relationships or they were the first or second person I met from spells of online dating.
Slowly ticking along with the goals. Struggling to motivate myself with the work related paperwork/research ones as I'm having far too much fun doing other stuff and have always hated giving up even MORE of my spare time to work. You'd think the 50 odd hours a week I spend on the shop floor would be sufficient, and I hate that we're expected to do probably another 10 or so of our own time for research/reading/audit/teaching etc. Ho hum - I'm sure the mood will happen eventually, probably when I get a rocket up the bum from my boss.....
Still waiting for the separation papers to arrive. The STBX had better be prompt with them. I've had enough of her sh1t and the sooner she's totally removed from my life the better.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Lees, you sound good! Glad that Glastonbury was a success. I finally go to my first concert of the summer next weekend and I can't wait.
I'm starting to plan a trip to the UK for late October. A couple days in London at the end of the month and a week or so beforehand either in Ireland or Scotland. My friend who lives in London was here yesterday and he gave me the thumbs up to stay with him and his wife so now must look into airfare.
Keep up the PMA!
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