Trying to find ways to keep busy and keep my mind occupied. Took the kids fishing both yesterday and today and had a fire with them last night while the wife was out on the town. I can't keep my mind off her though and it is very hard to maintain my composure. I preempted her for next Friday. I'm going to a music festival with a friend of mine. Will probably see others there also. Then, I am going to take my kids to grandma's for the 4th. They are begging to go, but W told them we may not be doing it this year. They love to swim in the pool and go to the fireworks where she lives. Told W that I am taking them. She asked if we were just going up for the evening and I told her no, that the kids want to swim too. Grandma (my mom) knows what is going on, so I'm guessing W wouldn't be comfortable there anymore. She once told my Mother that she was more of a Mom to her than her own Mom was. She always had a good time with my family, but became restless when visiting over the last couple of years. "I can't stand to just sit around there anymore.
