It is her perception that I am happier now than when we were married. Which, she says, hurts her a little.
I have not said she should come back, she is not in a place where she is ready to do that. She reiterated last night her belief that things would go back to "the way they were".
In a lot of ways, I am happier now. Her pushing this divorce has driven me to reduce my scope at work, to focus more on the boys, to reach out and be connected to many more people, to go out and do things instead of staying home and try to recover from a stressful job.
There were things about the relationship that were draining. I'm not ready to make a conclusion about that, but OK.
I don't think she's trying to pull that out of me - it's a raw, desperate kind of statement when she says it.
Bill, that's a good suggestion, maybe better than saying nothing.
I do too much of saying nothing.
She said last night too, that I'm the only one she wants to talk to.
Maybe what I need to reconcile is that this isn't going to be a normal relationship. On the other hand, it does not work that I continue to be her - everything? - as we embark into divorced life. For me, or for her.
