So I took of my rings yesterday morning. I'm not even sure what really prompted it, but I've been thinking about it for a while. To me they don't just represent my committment, they represent a bond that just doesn't exist right now.
Got home from an overnight business trip today (after texts from H kinda PO'd cause I was running late - he didn't know I was even out of province) and discovered the house was a total mess and he had gotten my baby bro to come stay with the kids so he could leave early. Checked the computer history (my 13 yr old brother was babysitting so we have to check, he's got a rep for accidentally downloading virus/spyware etc) and discovered that H was looking at rental properties again. My reaction/feelings??? I think it's relief. I'm getting tired of moving in and out of my house. I'm getting tired of cleaning it on my days at home and coming back to it being messy again. I did not get married to have a roommate - and a slobby one at that!
How do I feel???? Detached ... and strangely content!
Gotta get the kiddos to bed and crack a Moosehead Lime ... gotta love a cold beer on a hot day! I'm going to upload a few pics to the alt from our trip to the beach this evening (if I can figure out how to mobile upload!!!)
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
