XH choosing no contact

[peacetoday]

Upside
Thanks for sharing
Your words made me realize this is probably normal because you descibed exactly the cycle I go through with her
Mach
I am laying low tonight my son is also have a slleover out so I am alone first night in a long while
cant decide if I want to see BF
I think I want to be alone
Glam
tell me more about what you have read about spiritual battle
Im not sure what my XH is fighting but he is clearly a mess
have a peaceful weekend
peace

[glamgirl]

I was praying on a regular basis for my h to come home and move home, but what the Lord showed me was that I needed to pray for my h's salvation and casting out of demons. I felt strongly that this was what the Lord was showing me.

I researched on the internet how to cast out demons. I wouldn't recommend unless you are strongly and I say strongly grounded with the Lord. You do have authority to cast out demons.

Since I have done that I have seen major major changes in my h. Although I have been attacked spiritually myself when I have done this, so must proceed with caution. First thought coincidence, but second time NO.

I am waging a spiritual battle myself right now. The enemy wants to defeat me, since I have come so so far. I am trying to stay strong though.

Just my thoughts. I do believe that spiritual battles come into play here.

Trying to stay focused on the positives. Have a peaceful weekend.

[peacetoday]

Glam
scary stuff
Love takes us to the next level and your willingness and care for your H is amazing
I have prayed for my xh
but I will not go to battle for him
although I believe there is truth to that and as you have stated be very cautious--maybe seek professional help in that area and protect yourself--
you come so far--

Today I feel so vunerable
scared too
I look at all ive done on my own these past few years especially since D
I get scared
so much more to do
a lot of responsibiliites with the kids
sometimes not knowing what to do or how
Not knowing where things are going with BF and not even sure I can take this anywhere at this point
It all adds up to fear
and I know there is only one way out and it is through
but it is so scary

I spoke to an old neighbor today
she used to live next door to me and XH many years ago
Our daughters were 2 months apart and we became close
then we lost touch
she couldnt believe xh behavior
and that he does not talk to kids anymore
it is heartbreaking
and I know my kids will suffer greatly for his actions
that is sad
I sometimes just feel so angry at him-mostly for my children
and sometimes at myself for picking him
I was so naive
I will pray for forgiveness for myself and I will continue to let him go
it and his outcome are in Gods hands
peace

[Upside]

(((peace)))
It think it is normal to feel scared and vulnerable navigating through all this mess. Find strength in knowing that you have done a great job getting through the worst part. Just try to not get too far ahead of yourself and worry about things that have yet to happen. Keep giving your kids all the love and support you can and you all will be fine. Things may not always be easy but you can manage your way. You see how far you have come already, just keep going.

I know what you mean about being angry with yourself for picking your H. I am angry at myself 2 times over!!! Maybe we were naive when we picked our spouses or maybe we just took a gamble and lost...after all, there are no guarantees in life. We need to let that go, learn from our mistakes and not let what happened in the past keep us from living our lives to the fullest.

[glamgirl]

Yes Peace forge right through it. It is the only way. It is tough for you since your ex h seems to be out of the picture at the moment. Very hard on the kids.

Keep moving forward, you have NO idea what the future transpires. Your ex h may come forward one day and want to have a R with his kids. That may be a start for prayer for him that he would seek that desire.

Upside is right live your life to the fullest.

Hugs!

[TRUSTING]

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