Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

This is all hitting me so hard. It's like it's starting to really sink in that this misery is my life.

Saw H tonight when I picked up DS. He seemed down, not sure if it was because I was taking DS or because I was so down myself. Stayed near the car while DS was on the deck, even though we didn't really talk. I got DS and we headed off home. A little while later H texted asking me to call him. I did, hoping it was us he wanted to talk about but I was disappointed. He wanted to discuss getting DS a NintendoDS with me. I told him that our son has no use for a NintendoDS at my house but if H wants one for his place, that's his decision.