Stuck and don't know how to proceed

[sportsfan]

Interesting twolf. I've been contemplating going dim, maybe because I'm afraid to go all the way dark. He is different this time as he has figured out why he acted out (his parents were terrible and he had a horrendous childhood), but I'm getting tired of being in limbo. I want a commitment again. I want my partner again. I thought about telling him that, but I'm afraid of his response. It hurt so much when he told me he didn't love me anymore and that he didn't want to be married. This was after I caught him in a lie, but didn't know yet about the OW2. He got angry and I should have known there was another OW. I hate this. If he does find another OW, then it would be much easier to go dark. If we divorce, we lose everything, including the house.