cat and trapt - Thanks for the reality check! I admit I have been wallowing in the hurt for a couple of days now. I've been looking for something to hold on to - but I know I have to let go. I don't want to become defined by this event but right now the burden and hurt feel so heavy! I truly don't think I've ever felt this devastated. I plan to rest well tonight - try to get the swelling down in my eyes:) - have no contact with H - and quietly go to S's game tomorrow focused on him. Grateful for your support...
