Unfortunately I am supposed to be at S's bb tournaments.
You're going to watch your son play bb, nothing unfortunate about that.
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Of course H will be there strong and assured and I am afraid I will be a complete mess!
It's an act. You know better, no one that behaves this way is strong and assured.
You're going to watch your sons bb game. Do just that and enjoy it. When you see your H picture him in a baby blue leotard or something like that.
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My S has shared with some of his friends the sich - so I'm sure the parents will be watching.
No you're not sure of that. This is a negative assumption. Who cares anyway you're there to enjoy your son's game and root him on right?
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I am scared I won't handle it well.
Then you're setting yourself up for just that.
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I am so humiliated that I can't control these emotions - I feel incompetent in all aspects of my life / as an employee, parent, spouse, friend, daughter, sister - I used to be so proud of my resiliency and now I feel like it is reduced to nothing. Like my survival skills are gone! God I hate feeling this way!
Wow! You're going to give this crazy man that much power over your life? He takes a detour into la la land (which was beyond any of your control or doing) and suddenly you're a failure in all aspects of life?
I don't believe that.
You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Dig deep, you can do this.
Take it one day at a time. Focus on your son and his game today.
Today can be an excellent and empowering day if you choose it to be.
