Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

I am at the point that I am glad when she does not talk to me. I hope I will never have to talk to her again the way she is. I have no "respect" for this woman.

DLS-I don't know if I have reached the point completely that I am totally detached, but I have moved a step closer this week.

IDU-I am making greater strides to the point where I don't view her as the W I married. I find it absurd that she stills wears her wedding ring. I find it disappointing that she only cares enough to buy our kids love to "stick-it" to me. I find it pathetic the way she justifies the A as okay. She really has so many problems that she will still have when I am long gone with a life that is about me and my D and S. They are the ones that have all of me now.

I don't have a place in my heart for someone that is so out to totally destroy me in anyway possible and blames me for all our M problems. I have my fair share of blame, but she puts it all on me. Not a chance I will accept that!

I am going to continue my quest to find the money I need to mount a full defense in my divorce.

I have gone from saving the M to winning a D for me and the kids. They need me to be the parent that only seeks to make their life great and to bring them up to be good people. I will try to keep them knowing what is right and wrong. STBXW and OM are not the ones to teach them this, and I am the one that will instill good values and morals in them.