Unfortunately I am supposed to be at S's bb tournaments. Of course H will be there strong and assured and I am afraid I will be a complete mess! My S has shared with some of his friends the sich - so I'm sure the parents will be watching. I am scared I won't handle it well. I have been sobbing practically none stop for two days now. Can't seem to empty the well. I am so humiliated that I can't control these emotions - I feel incompetent in all aspects of my life / as an employee, parent, spouse, friend, daughter, sister - I used to be so proud of my resiliency and now I feel like it is reduced to nothing. Like my survival skills are gone! God I hate feeling this way!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
