It is time to get strong...whenever I do he really seems to rebel and cares less.
WHO CARES???????! Who gives half a rats what he does??!! This is about YOU taking care of YOU for YOU! Look, if he got hit by a city bus tomorrow, you'd have to go on, right? And you could b/c .... you'd have to. My dear, you HAVE to now! Bus or no bus! Haha!
And by the way, I sincerely doubt what you wrote in red. I don't think you've ever really stood up and stood out. Maybe you had a few flair ups, but you seem rather inconsistent - one day strong, next day undone. And then when you see him "rebel" or whatever, you back off of your plan b/c you live so much based on what HE does. I challenge you to really commit to living in a way that is healthy for you - no matter what he does. And I have a bet going that if you really did that and STUCK WITH IT, he'd be very interested - quite the opposite of "cares less".
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