Cyrena, Jack, Libby, SA, GAG, Eric, CW & M&H. Thank you for the pats on the back
I still feel good about the convo, it's not going to change anything in my sitch right now, but I think that the we were really listening to each other for the first time since the last false R and that can't be bad. I did feel more closeness and some of the old intimacy back. Got some points across that I hope he will think about.
I know that he misses having me in his life, and hates being cut off, he even brought it up. Said that he would like to be friends and "I guess it makes a difference to you when I'm with OW, because you were friendlier when I broke up with her" Duh....
Cyrena - Good point, he may not remember the conversation and likely will re-write it to suit his current state of mind...
Jack - Feels good not to get any 2x4s for a change My feeling is that we will have more talks like this and I could have another one today lol...but you are right....slowly does it...timing is everything
Libby - I know about your convo with H last week, you were worried...glad you "reflected on it". I think it's OK to "release the pressure" once in a while. My H was emailing me 1/2 hr after the meeting, wondering if I would go to a networking meeting with him...I said OK. He replied that he is happy that I will come.
SA - Yeah I got my PH for the day
GAG - This sure is a crazy week - I feel like a "manic depressive" One day down, next day up..... Judging from H's emails - he is not "withdrawing"...the opposite....I think that because I actually talked to him (first time in about 6 weeks) he thinks that everything is now "better" between us. I look forward to reading the "Intimacy and Desire"
Erik - I think that you are right...it does feel like a closure in some ways. I know that it was the first time that I talked to him from position of strength, not worrying how what I say will affect the outcome of our sitch. Because I know the outcome of our stich as it stands right now...we are done, I'm moving on....could something change in the future? Possibly, but I will deal with that when that time comes...I have dropped the rope and it's liberating and empowering.
LOL...look at me all hyped up and ready to conquer the world... I'm sure that I will cycle again and that he will get to me again....but moving along one day at the time....
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FTR….that was ME…LMAO…..
HAHAHA Erik...
BTW - the pool guy was back yesterday, he still looked good, but he kind of spoiled the mood when he handed me the $700 bill
CW - thank you hon
M&H - I sure hope that at least something from that convo will tickle his gray cells...but who knows...the fog is still pretty thick....
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
