started packing our condo this week. still living at H's new place, then headed out for my trip and when i come back in august, i'll have to find a new place to stay. this is the first time in my life things are SO unplanned. it's actually not so bad - although i might be cursing myself come august 1st and i have no where to go! some friends think i'm nuts that i don't have it figured out yet but honestly, i can only handle one thing at a time right now. it's too hard to try set my life "right" in one fail swoop...i mean what does that look like anyways?

so for now, need to pack cause movers are coming on the 23rd. then will clean and fix a few things for the tenants that are moving in. and then will focus on packing and getting ready for my trip to...Spain. smile <-- funds running out b/c of this though...my finances are a whole diff't discussion

it's kind of sad to pack my place. found our old wedding albums but didn't open them. i'm surprised though that i'm not too emotional over it...i guess it's cause i'm numb?

i'll tell you one thing though, i am exhausted! i'm still putting on a happy face for H ('fake it till i make it'), friends who were supportive have started dropping off since they are finally fed up, trying to figure out logistics (w/o having H involved since i'm still "working" on M) which includes packing and such, and then work which has been chill for this entire year just went bonkers. "when it rains it pours"...good thing i love pouring rain. wink