I've been reading a very good book that I hope will help me in the long run. It's called The Dance of Anger: A Woman's Guide To Changing the Patterns of Intimate Relationships by Harriet Lerner. I've had it for a while but am finally able to devote some time to it.
I have anger at H that comes and goes, but it often flares back up just when I thought it was corralled. I've been feeling angry lately, and I don't like letting these feelings fester.
I also feel kind of down right now because I saw my sister-in-law today and learned that the family is taking a beach vacation, beginning tomorrow. Father-in-law, mother-in-law, brother-in-law, his wife (SIL), their toddler daughter, MIL's niece, and H. I don't know why this bothers me. I don't know if it's that I feel left out of something or that in the time H and I have been married, there was NEVER a family vacation like this. I don't like the way I feel right now, and I certainly don't want to slip into self-pity.
I'm going to read some more of my anger book and maybe do some journaling to decompress. It would probably also make me feel better to read some of my Sh*t My Dad Says book or even some of my newest book from the Self-Hurt Series titled How To Get Into Debt (a satire, obviously). It would help to get some of my feelings out on paper and then read something silly before bedtime.
I also feel that it would be to my great advantage to eat a Snickers ice cream bar.
