Think about this for a minute here. Talk about who's more emotionally dependent, you, or your H. Well let's see, your H takes a ride on the mothership, but he's not riding alone, he had to have an ow along with. You're left on your own and you have a buddy who has offered a 'friend with benefits package' and you turned him down. That clearly states to me that you are the emotionally stronger of the two of you.
Another thing that clearly speaks of your strength is even asking for suggestions on GALing. Wanting ideas means you're at least thinking about it. That is great! Next step is to go do it.
One last thing to remember is what Snodderly said to you. Your H took the NC order from your lawyer to the bank. It keeps him from having to deal with his feelings about the whole sitch.
Hang in there, you'll get through this and we'll be here to support you.
