forrest, i need a 2x4 smacking. i'm not supposed to talk about MIL, FIL, whatever IL. i'm not supposed to talk about h. there are consequences to breaking the rules laid out for me. i said i would give this a chance for 30 days. this is unproductive of me.
talk only about me.
greek's reaction is no different from anybody else i've spoken to. this is what triggers that kind of melt down in me.
it comes down to what my deal breakers are - infidelity and physical abuse. i do not share my h with anybody nor do i believe in open marriages. i do not put up with physical abuse.
his debt is his debt. it has nothing to do with me. nobody ever asked me to pay for it. if he's happy having that kind of debt over his head. that's his choice. i prefer to not have debt like that over my head. but i shouldn't react the way i did because i'm not on the hook for it. it doesn't affect me directly.
i will continue doing what i'm doing. play squash several times a night. i still talk to my family members. i will continue to eat, sleep, and shower. i will take care of myself. i will do something nice for someone in need.
