Sorry for the lack of updates. The last few weeks have been a rollercoaster. At times things are looking up and then the momentum shifts to D. W has done some looking into lawyers but as far as I know hasn't made contact. She is still very doubtful that I can be the loving husband she needs. She wants to move out west later in the year and I don't think she can or will do it without my assistance. She desnt want me around at times yet needs me around to get where she wants to go. I know she is "using" me but I can't help but thinkng that it's my window to show her I can provide the love she needs.
Another issue is that she went and told all of our friends that she was leaving me and I think most of them consider her the "bad guy" now. I'm not sure what her intentions where but it seems like it backfired. The problem is I know that she is hurt and I know my lack of physical love made her that way. Other people don't know all the details and she is unfairly characterized as a bad person. I think when she realizes that our friends are "on my side", she will retreat even more and distance herself.
I really love her and I admit that my behavior was pretty bad and it has caused alot of pain.
