"but I'm lonely...there's still a sting about being "discarded."...I was still thrown away with absolutely no regard by the man I loved, sacrificed for, had a child with, promised my life to."
Hey Hooos,
You must know that feeling is not personal, that I often feel it too. But then, after a few prayers and convos with friends, we realize this is "just a feeling" and not "real" right??? We were all discarded, but the thing is...I don't really believe that "they" (our spouses) realize it; not to the extent that we realize those feelings. Not sure I'm making sense here, but trying...
What I'm trying to say is, I used to believe what H did to me was my problem, that I wasn't good enough. And in a sense, it is my problem. It was my problem. It isn't anymore, and here's why.
I can so vividly remember believing I was going to "die." Truly, I believed that. Now I know it was just a "feeling" and not real, just like I know that I AM good enough.
We (both you and me) married a man who was "broken" not able to fully love. I'm sorry, but in a sense, we both made wrong choices when we married them. We could've have had better, but we didn't "realize" it at the time.
Just know that, and you'll find true love. I'm sure of it.
