Please Help Me

[MESSIMADE]

No no more sneaky stuff. The term subtle was not meant to be and "underhanded" term. I meant that I am not buying gifts, sending flowers, ect, I am just doing things for her and son that she would normally have to do for him or herself.

Transparent is my new middle name.

Sidebar on buying gifts. Wife and 3 of her freinds are going to a concert tomorrow night. I did buy the tickets. I bought the tickets prior to Dday. They were supposed to be an Anniversary gift to her (coming up the end of this month). Every year us and another couple (our close friends) go to a concert together at our state fair which is the end of Aug. Knowing that we would either have a little one to take care of by then or that she would be too pregnant to enjoy concert I bought these tickets for our A for her favorite group. I could finally see the writing on the wall that she would not be going anywhere with me let a lone a concert with our close freinds/couple, so I gave her the tickets (she had no clue about the) and told her to take whoever she wanted. That I bought them for her, and I would like to be going with her, but that I wanted her to enjoy herself and she better be spending some time doing that before the next little one came.

God I want her to look at me like she used to...with love in her eyes and smile on her face. I want her to want me to walk in the door, not dread me walking in the door.