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I was hoping that you would respond to my previous reply and hoping that you would clarify the question that you had asked me.

No wife doesn't ask questions about "us," she's pretty much closed the door on that I think. Suprisingly she does talk about what baby is doing and lets me watch it move and kick (I have only got to feel the baby kick once). On a good note her blood work came back and no G diabeties thank god!

We talk about everything but "us" so I let my love for her and my remorse show through my actions, not my words. My words have been lies to her for so long I know she could not trust what I am saying. I'm not sure that she really trusts my actions either but that all I got. Know what I mean?

I truely don't want to sweep this under the rug and make it go away or white wash it over and cover it up. I want to fix me, fix what I have broken, and hopefully fix us before it is too late.