Well, I woke up this morning and I have an new outlook in life. I read the book again, and I have to say.

I'm attached to the relationship but not in love anymore. I'm going to file for divorce and move on with my life. This is just too toxic for me, and I really don't care if he stays with the OW or not.

I think that I was upset that I "lost" but I realize that I've won because he's not here and for that I'm relieved. I don't want to fight for him, I just want to be done. Too much has happened and I don't want to be with a person like that any longer.

I didn't mention that he was also a drug addict, alcoholic, he just got arrested for shop lifting, lost his job of 10 years, and many more things that would just be crazy if I wanted to keep this toxic person in my life. It' so over!!! Thanks for your help and I'll probably pos here again because the hurt of the betrayal still stings, but other than that. I've made up my mind


M-43
H-44
M-16 T-19
S-10
S-8
left for OW 6/11/10
came back on 7/5/10 to present
trouble in paradise again....
You know I'm a dreamer.........