Well - I had sent a text eariler asking if something had happened earlier in the day because my son was upset. But - yeah, I tend to pick up when she calls. Yes, I'm too available to her.
Wii - well, funny thing - some of the issues yesterday stemmed from she having one of her friend over, and the friend's daughter is difficult to deal with - so she actually was complaining about her friend and was asking how to handle it. And, again funny, started complaining about TM - she says that she doesn't "fit in" with her friends, etc. So. She tells ME about it.
Anyway, that's just all detail, doesn't matter. The point is, if I want to change this dynamic it's going to have to be a decided effort on my part. It's easy to believe there's nothing wrong with it, that the reasons to distance are just because I'm supposed to. I am finding it difficult to internalize that this is setting myself up for problems. To emotionally digest that. Like I said, I need a plan, or something to stick to. These habits, the divit that I just roll back to - any maybe the feeling that things are normal - I don't know. Need some sort of forcing function.
This must be what it's like to quit smoking. Except it's completely different.
So, anyway, didn't call this morning. It's stupid. I'm going to look at this as an exercise in discipline I guess.
