I asked H over the weekend why he never came to pick up the papers... is it because you dont want them, because you think the D is a mistake...
He said Yes.
I couldnt breathe! he said but lets just focus on the baby... blah blah blah...
i added a few more comments like -it will take time and work -you could be honest w/ me it wont build my hope bc i know how hard it is to move forward and reconcile... said i am not going to plan our next honeymoon... he laughed and said YEAH RIGHT... you are not?!?! and laughed... the conversation was very lighthearted (believe it or not), i could tell H was laughing out of nerves at first. but then i said, jut be honest w/ me, its all i ask, he said i know, i will learn to communicate better.
I quickly ended it by saying i know its a lot easier to walk away and get divorced than to want to work at things and fix our M, said I agree. so lets just take one day at a time and be happy with us right now and take small steps...
WOAH!
Today he is painting the baby's room and sending me pictures via text message of the room...
he is really really involved, calls and texts all the time.
