Re-Connecting

[Fightingforher]

I saw my C lastnight, it was a good session. I caught her up to speed about the D and about the OM. I told her that I continue to check the phone records to monitor how long they talk for just for my validation. She asked why I keep checking. I didn't really have an answer other then it helps me justify why I feel ok with the D. It may not make sense but knowing that she has found someone new confirms that she has no Respect or Love for me.

My C also suggested that I get my own phone plan. It's not healthy to keep checking the records and to consume myself with this. I have to say that I agree with her. I called my service provider and they will remove her at the end of the month.

I contacted a realtor yesterday to start the process of selling our home. I'm chomping at the bit to get out of there so I can start my new life. It's hard being in the same house with her knowing she has already moved on.

My W keeps letting me know how hard it's going to be for her to live on her own. She has a fear of living by herself. I simply say "I understand". We talked lastnight for a bit, no arguements, mostly about our son. We have plans this weekend to take our son to a kids event. I'm still not sure if I want her there, I'm not sure how to tell her that I'd like her not to go.