I am new to this board, but remember that the OW has her own agenda. she will tell you things that aren't necessarily true. she wants something as well. and that something does not include you. my sitch is obviously diff but there is one thing in common: our spouses are confused. it's one way then it's another. there are so many great people on this forum with so much more experience/knowledge/savvy, and they would probably tell you to be patient and to be strong for YOU. I too wish my problems would go away, but you need to know that you are a good person. the H's behavior right now is not a reflection on you and has everything to do with him. do not question yourself and who you are.