Game Point

[tryingtilDorR]

Time for an update. Kids finished school last week and S18 graduated from HS. We had a party for 70+ people at my house on Sunday.

Since my last post, W and I got into one nasty fight/argument. I am not sure how it happened, but I really lost it. I was telling her to get out, etc. etc. The idea of her here in the house when she is carrying on a R with OM just doesn't sit right with me and I told her that now that she has her own place and spends time over there she should just stay there and we start acting officially 'separated'.

I have gotten reports from people that have seen her and OM hanging around town also.

After the argument, things calmed down and we had been trying to maintain the peace, but now that school is out she is gone. She is staying there nearly full time and only comes around when I am not home for hte most part.

I feel a huge sense of relief when she is not around. I enjoy my home and my kids when they are there. She took my S11 and S13 to her place for the first time last night and they stayed there overnight.

I cut things off with my 'friend'/OW because I knew she was expecting to get very serious quickly and I probably am not ready for that, so rather than hurt her I told her that I need more time to let the dust settle in my situation and I also think that I need to meet more people before getting serious with anyone in particular? However, it is nice to know that there are a LOT of great people out there and meeting them can be a fun and interesting journey.

Anyway, when she is gone it is like I am in a whole new world with her out of my 'space' and it feels good. 3, 6, or 9 months ago this would have been really agonizing, but for some reason now it feels liberating. There are hard times to come, especially if she starts bringing OM around my kids or otherwise gets even more serious with him like marrying him. That would be hard to deal with I think after the damage those two caused, but I will cross that bridge if I need to. Maybe they will blow up and he will be gone. I feel like I would be relieved if she found someone else at this point, almost welcoming it.