I think you are doing really well B... in the beginning you were in 'what's she thinking' full mode but I can see that you're changing. So give yourself a pat, if you're too hard on yourself the negative cycle will bite you (remember the white dog)
I'm trying to change... I'm trying not to let the negative win. It's been a pretty rough week, so I feel like I've slipped a couple of times, but I am definitely trying.
I'm still spinning occassionally back onto "What's she thinking?" mode, but I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I'll probably never know.
Originally Posted By: fullmoon
It's true what you said, it's the moment that you miss and not the place. And I tend to make the past more beautiful in memory than how it actually was. Puts it all in perspective... I will remind myself of that.
I talked to someone who knows both of us quite well and was advised to move on... it's just unhealthy. So I'm thinking of nc all the way. After all, you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink.
NC is going to be a rough thing to keep up with, but I think you're right. If he needs to learn in order for you to have a relationship at all, then it's not something you can teach him, its something he needs to figure out himself.
I'm sat at work with a heachache from the new pills and a hip that I pulled a bit hard last night... so feeling a little sorry for myself today... but then it's another driving lesson tonight, so there's no time to wallow... plus I've got someone waiting on a script, so I REALLY need to find a way to do some writing work tonight.
Got to live like life is normal and eventually it will be, right?
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
