Last night of Birthing Classes tonight. Went really well. H actually rubbed my back at one point, i almost passed out.
I can tell he is more comfortable around me, starting to whisper in my ear during class, laughing, skin touching, staring (dont know what thats about), and joking or trying to chear me up and just being my old H. Who knows...
During class they said something like pregnant women need their husbands both now and when their baby is born to just hug them, love them and tell their W's how amazing they are and that they are proud of them. My eyes filled with tears... couldnt have stopped it if i tried... i really tried... H leaned into me and said please dont cry. I am proud of you and i'm here for you... (yeah right... its not the same... i do appreciate the finger, but i want the whole damn hand!). So it made me a little emotional. He talks as if we are still together and everything is going to be ok.
All i know is that he needs to work at wanting to be in my life... i shouldnt have to cry and ask him to come back... he should be crying and begging for forgivness and asking if I would take him back...
We shall see...
not complaining... i see a lot of progress and things are really changing... for the better i think... but i am still floating and trying not to make anything out of anything...
