I think this is my home for the next 6 months...

[beingreal]

Hi everyone. I had a *security breach* at work. I logged onto my laptop at work for a coworker & up popped the DB page on the Google Chrome favorites page.

"What's divorce busting?"

"Oh, just a page helping me deal with all of this."

"Is it a chatroom?"

"Oh, no. Nothing like that. Just psychology stuff. haven't you noticed how well I've been doing? Hmmm? lololol" holy crap.

I logged him into his server & hung out until I could close it up again. Except shelbel was a little too *real* for comfort.

So now I am just.... being real.


And in other news... the old H showed up for less than 48 hours.

In a nutshell he is back to blaming me, feeling sorry for himself, not able to see any way out of his mess & it just keeps building.

There is so much more. I'm just too drained to rehash everything right now. But I think I did well. I was calm and rational, did't take the bait, was honest without being a bitch, and concerned without being condescending. I am worried about him, but I know that I can't do anything for him--he has to do this himself. I can honestly say that I pray he fights his way through this. Not for me. Not for us. I am not concerned with a reconciliation at all.

I hope he does this for himself. It's like watching someone you love on a sinking ship & they refuse to jump because they are too afraid of the water.

*sigh*


I need to go pay some bills. You know, be real and stuff. lol

hugs my friends.