I am trying and on the whole succeding to keep my expectations zero. I have been hurt to many times trying to decide what H is thinking.
H came today as normal to visit the children and potentially to have supper.
H remains increasingly distant from me which has been like this for the last 3 weeks when he has visited. He did come and 'chat' but it felt much more awkward than normal and definitley not as long. There were long silences as the conversation didn't flow. He remains depressed and distant. Looks old again. Did give me eye contact though. I feel he has pulled away further which is part of the journey he is on.
We never ate supper as he had bought the kids a takeaway. I offered him food but he said he wasn't hungry.
It is fathers day here on Sunday. H had no cards from the children. They asked what they should do and I told them to do what felt right. I'm sure this will have hurt him but is a consequence of his leaving us for OW.
H says he misses the kids and I did say that it must be hard. It is inevitable that the children will grow away. He was a 24/7 dad now he opts in once per week with the odd text inbetween.
H left earlier tonight than usual. He has said he will visit next week and watch the football match with our S16.
I don't expect any comms now until next week.
One positive he has paid some extra money into the bank account without being asked! I thnked him for doing that.
