Yes, be the best you you can be. What kind of photos do you take?
i enjoy photojournalism. i like taking pictures that tell a story. i don't like taking pictures of people standing there and smiling for the camera. i like candid shots. i have the standard lens for my camera and i also have a macro lens. i have been eye-ing a telephoto lens for about a year now but it's around $700. right now, it would not be the right thing to buy. that $700 should be saved for other things like food and rent.
my baking class requires me to buy extra tools so i need to put the lens on hold.
with me, i want to earn that lens. i don't just buy stuff. i make sure i earn it. if i'm disciplined enough and i know i've worked hard, i'll get it. i'll cherish it too. this was something my h did not like about me. that i cherished the things i got.
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This weekend go take some pics then show him some (e-mail, at squash). This is the "cupcakes" - a reason to connect. Take a pic that emotionally connects you two without anything being said. Make sense?
this is a tough one. i'm not going to get in his face for a while. i've learned from my first cupcake mistake that it's not the right time yet. also, father's day is coming up. something tells me he's going home for a few weeks to be with his parents. "cuz y'know, his father could die. he's had a few heart attacks in the past so he's living on borrowed time. he could die any day with his unhealthy eating habits. his son should be spending as much time with his father as possible because you just never know. he may never see christmas and then who will take care of his mother?" sorry .. somebody slap me.
this is why i can't see him. because i could snap. also, the separation agreement is still being worked on. i'm really scared for it.
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Quote: what happened to that girl who had a zest for life?
That's who we are rooting for.
that girl is still in me. she's just really beaten down. i was so sad yesterday because i know he's just putting on a front and joining in on our fun for himself. it's not to be near me or anything. i know he still wants everything. i can see it in him - there is still a lot of hatred towards me.
