Lori, Welcome to the boards and I am sorry for the reason you are here!
I dont post much anymore, yours got my attention as soon as I started reading it! I KNOW that feeling! I said I would marry my husband 4 hrs after I met him! I JUST KNEW! He also has felt that feeling!
Anyways, the people here are GREAT! listen to what they say, and read, read and read some more! the further along you get, and it is a LONG ride, it will make more and more sense, and you will be the best you ever!
I know that may be hard to believe right now! but, IT WILL! take care of yourself and your son...
keep posting, and keep your chin up!
me 39 h 38 kids 9 and 6 h left 8/9/09 loving and devoted wife and mother still going...10 months later...