I can't agree more! My life, since S was born, is 99.9% focused on him!! Every decision I make in life I consider my S and how it will affect him! He is a 100% mama's boy! I love it!!!

And you're right! That should continue to be my main focus and it shall be smile He is an AMAZING child and shocks me everyday with his knowledge and abilities and he is difinately my buddy!! smile He is a little guy with a whole lot a personality and NO fear! He's a kick in the pants! I know how amazing he is...I just gotta stop trying to figure out why his dad doesn't get it all! It's his deal...he's the one gonna miss out! Not I!!

I am there for everything humanly possible and look forward the day that I can possibly be a stay at home mom again! Whenever I'm not at work I'm with him and hate giving up any time at all!

I feel like I always have to be the strong stable one and it gets tiresome sometimes...but his dad can't be that way. He's moved 7 times since we separated 4 years ago :-/ I've been in the same place 3 years. I don't do drugs and go to bars...his favorites things to do are drink and go to bars!

The best part of me through this entire thing is my S has seen me be the same nice and courteous person regardless if his dad is with someone or not...so me being nice and hanging out at this point isn't a shocking change for my S! I am very proud of myself as I feel like in most every case I have had enough self confidence to take the high road and be the bigger person and have my outward self be completely even keel! It's been quite satisfying to see my self control grow to be so amazing smile YAY me!

I appreciate all of your feed back and encouragement. So that I can get another prospective and vent about my situation! It helps SO much smile

I love being a mommy and I've looked forward to it my entire life! I prayed when I was 4 for God to let me have a baby! Heck if someone is gonna ruin my mommyhood smile There's nothin better!