My question is am I totally cray for wanting to work things out on any level? Should I just kind of withdraw and realize that it's not worth saving? It kills me because I can't stop feeling like he would treat someone else better and that i was just a failure... I realize that's the abuse talking but I can't seem to get myself to snap out of it.
You are not crazy. And it is the abuse that is making you think that way. Your self-esteem has been shattered and you don't know what to do because even during the abuse, he was there to pick you back up after he knocked you down.
I think you need to think about this: get YOURSELF healed FIRST. If you try to keep this relationship going, while you are still so mentally shattered, you'll always be in this place you are in now.
Me 32, H 34, DD 3 M 6, T 8 Bomb 03/10 OW Bomb 6/5/10 Separate & NC 6/28/10 My 2nd EA Thread
