Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

The smugness has worn off a little bit.

Last night since we only have one car, she wanted to use it today, and I told her no problem. The kids and I cleaned together and went throught the drive through car wash together. It was fun.

She thanked me, and there was no problems. It was the most we have said in awhile. I suspect we won't say much for awhile too.

I did not want to do what I did, but it was necessary. Even if I still have love for her still, I cannot sit back and allow her to continue to do what she has been. She cannot be allowed to walk all over me anymore.

I know I need to show this is me. I am also this person now regardless of the ups and downs or had bad I feel inside.

It is going to be very tough to come, but I will be heard in a court and in mediation. It is what I need at this point. She will not be controlling the outcome. That has been taken from her now. She will have to do it in court room.

She will not be able to take advantage of me. Again, I have to put and the kids first this time. I cannot protect her anymore. She has to take care of herself.

I am this man, and she will have to see for herself. It will take time as DLS said, but I have time, and I am not doing it for the M now.