I know.

Self-reporting here because I know I need to look at it.

It's funny, I've seen people comment about how you can look at other people's situations and they seem more clear than your own. I'm having the experience where I OBSERVE MYSELF and think "WTF? What is he - er... I - doing??"

Make me think how much my behavior has been informed by things other than thinking. I'm not talking to you today because I'm mad. I am talking to you today because I'm sad. Whatever.

I don't have a - plan - philosophy - set of rules - consistant approach - vision...