2 weeks left to DB

[newmama]

Piano, good idea to vent here instead of to your WH. Do you think he reads your rants? Or just glosses over them? I have such a hard time when I try to picture you getting angry at him because on here, you are sooo calm, kind, and supportive to others! I think "mental note: do not "cross" Piano! She has a bad temper!" lol! I hope you know that I say that affectionately!

I think that there is a difference between being depressed clinically and just being sad, don't you? So of course it makes sense that you are feeling sad right now. In my case, I entered periods of sadness but never got depressed until March-April of this year! But good for you for checking with the psych- because we want to be the best moms we can to our babies!

A counsellor once told me this is a self-protective mechanism - facing up to the truth of what my H has done would probably make him go into such a depression he would not find his way out. I believe this to be quite likely and have seen this happen for brief periods when he opens his eyes - he quickly shuts them again though as he doesn;t like what he sees.

I think this applies to a lot of the WASs! The reality is so painful so they compartmentalize and just don't think about it. In fact, if they associate US with pain and guilt, then they want to avoid us.