I am back...and finding me

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I am sorry that you are cycling but it is normal that we go through this.

I think it is something that we may always experience to some degree.

Someday, you will find love. When you are not looking for it, it will just show up.

That love, may look like your W again, or it may look like a completly new person. Who ever that is, she will be a very lucky woman. Because you are coming to your understanding.

God has not forsaken you. You need to remember that. Everything that happens, is in His time. And, something that I think we all forget, just because WE have a vision of how we want something to look, does NOT mean that God has that same exact vision. He has one though. And it will be the right one. Of that I am certain.

That is the lesson of letting go, my friend. We release our need to control (because your detailed vision, IS an attempt at controlling the outcome) and we become very general in our desires (general but specific).

To want her to heal, is general and specific. To want her to heal and return to you, is control. See the difference?

When we release all of that...
When we put our trust in God, that the outcome, will be the right one, in His eyes...

That is when changes begin to happen.

God is with you, bit by bit, piece by piece, day by day, you are releasing, you are trusting, you are growing and He is with you every step of the way.

I will catch you on the flip side my friend.